It is almost impossible to explain to someone who has never done an opiate."Every time that I hear about an overdose, it makes me even more determined to stay clean and sober. That's why it's important to maintain a strong support system, work with other addicts and stay connected.It's when you start becoming complacent with your recovery that things can go downhill."A lot of scare-mongering goes on in the media about drug use.
To many people who have never grappled with addiction, it can be difficult to comprehend the desperate desire to use, even after so many years sober. Look, every junky is always "considering" getting clean. I knew a couple of characters he'd played, I knew his name, but that was it. When you're addicted to heroin, it's generally a long-running, close relationship.
To gain deeper insight into drug addiction, we asked recovering heroin users to share their experiences with us. There are plenty of bad times, but there are also gems that stay with you. You may swear that for all they've put you through, you never want anything to do with them again, but there's always that part of you that misses the good times and wonders how you'd get along now.
I too have felt those worthless feelings and thought I would never be able to stay sober.
But that doesn't mean I gave up."The best possible outcome of losing a genius like Phillip Seymour Hoffman to drugs is getting everyone to examine how the 'War On Drugs' has been a dismal failure. Everyone in the family becomes dysfunctional."There are different sides to addiction.
One of the worst things about a relapse for me is not the loss of money and material things, but the loss of love and trust from my family.
I just want to tell other addicts who feel hopeless that they are not alone.
Now the game is in a different league, the complications and ramifications are endless but they all lead to one road, an ever increasing addiction.
It's been 17 years this year since I injected my last hit of heroin which most certainly would have been in my neck, the only veins I could use at that point in my addiction."High-profile deaths make me terribly sad, not because I, in anyway, knew the people intimately, but because they remind me of all of the people I have known and lost to drugs. I went to high school with three of them: one overdosed in his senior year, one in his freshman year of college, one last year. Opiates are especially manipulative, because you get outside of your consciousness. Though the experience of a drug is a romantic and nostalgic feeling, addiction is not. It is both metaphorical and biological, it is hunger for emotion, and chemical alteration.
But Hoffman's death has aroused a whole new fresh public discourse around heroin addiction, and I must say that its effect on me has not resulted in feelings of sorrow, or relief, but thoughts and feelings of nostalgia.